from the bottom of my heart .

i dont know since when i've become so picky . NO! i should say more and more picky ! why ?

i think its because i seen so much before i get to approach to anyone .

the more i see and the hear from other people the higher hope i will give to myself to find a better one or i should say the best one. i know i can't have the only one as my future but at least i will give it a try .

i've been exposed to much to this world maybe not world but peoples ..

peoples with problems i'll become the listener, peoples with happiness i'm there to share with them , peoples with sadness im there to advise and comfort them .

i know it sounds like im so nice and i'm like God can solve everything maybe i should say im like angel but there's at least something i can learn from them and it makes me to be a better person day by day.

Speaking of which , i should say thank you .

im learning and determine what should i do when i put myself in their shoes so that i can help them and through what they ecxperienced i know what to do when it comes to my own situation.

of course i dont wish that myself will meet something bad but hopefully its good and memorable moments.

i still couldnt find someone really understands me and a person would think for their own future aka mature.

i need someone think maturely for themselves and people around them . i'm like saying that people around me arent mature right ? no thats not what i meant but people with often exposure that can increase their knowledge which is a great stuff ! why not ?

to find someone that can make judgement all by themselves is not an easy thing i know but there are those people . i believe !

frankly speaking , those criterias i mentioned i only can find between 25years old and above people.

for most of the people that they actually dont really mind about age . last time i would say that i wouldnt find someone who is much much older than me but now ... i would say i dont mind but i have my own limit.

i ensure one thing is i wouldnt find someone younger than me although how i wish to have a younger brother or sister but not for my another half i wouldnt want to feel like i'm babysitting them.

i dont have special reasons for this special post but because of the tsuname attacked japan that makes me a very sensitive person that actually felt that the world gonna end soooon and yet no one been regonizing the full of me except my family. if the world really gonna end that soon and yet i can't find him , that is the biggest revenge from my previous life .

yayayaya the time hasnt come yet baby says God .

i believe there's someone who waiting for me and i'm waiting too.